Anvita was lying on her bed. The room was dark, her mother and herself were alone in the house waiting for her dad to return. Anvita had dozed off entwined in her thoughts.
She was woken by the sound from the drawing room. Anvita collected her thoughts and tried to concentrate on who was making the sound. She heard her parents discuss the new proposal from the confines of her room. Her father was speaking loudly, Anvita wondered if he was doing so internationally so that she would hear what he was saying. Anvita tried to go back to sleep but her inquisitiveness got better of her as she heard her name being uttered more than once in the conversation.
Anvita heard her mother’s voice ‘But they seem to be very poor. And the boy, is he not very thin’.
‘What did you expect after what your daughter has done?’ her father retorted angrily before adding ‘He is in a very good job and doing very well in Pune’
‘I am sure he will put on weight after the marriage’ her father added as an afterthought, hoping that it would placate her mother.
‘Oh!! But she was so young then. She did not realize what she was doing. And anyway no one in the village knows about the incident. It is wrong to punish her for her innocience. Remember she is our only daughter’ her mother added meekly. Talking to herself more than replying to her husband.
‘Oh!!! You foolish women, it was on all the local papers. Even if they don’t know now someone is bound to tell them about it before the marriage’ her father had sounded furious.
Anvita recollected the nightmare that she had lived thorough during those days. The thoughts from those days returned to her one by one and so did the tears.
‘Never’ he shouted
‘Never in my life had police stepped into my house,’
‘Don’t you remember the story in the Kannada daily next day? Be glad that they accepted our proposal.’
‘This is the last I want to hear about it’ he added after a pause.
Anvita realized that this was the end of the conversation. There was no more anyone could say, her dad had made up his mind.
‘Talk to that foolish girl and make her understand. I don’t want anything to go wrong this time’ her father added before walking out from the room.
Anvita sunk her face into the pillow and cried.
She no longer knew or realized what troubled her. She had gone numb to everything around her since long. Anvita cried in remorse and pain unable to understand what was troubling her.
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‘Hi! Good Morning everyone I am your new Math’s teacher’ Anvita said to the perplexed faces looking up to her expectantly.
It was Anvita’s first day at work, she was the Math’s teacher for the fifth class. The current teacher had to leave suddenly and the school had been hard pressed to find a replacement for her. Luckily, for Anvita she was a gold Medalist in Math’s, which was her forte. And she also new someone very important at the school board who had been kind enough to suggest her name as an replacement.
‘Why don’t we introduce ourselves’ Anvita continued as the students still seemed very confused.
Mrs. Gupta had been a very strict teacher who never missed an opportunity to punish the kids. She was in her late fifties and belonged the old school of teachers who believed in the saying – spare the rod and spoil the child. Every student her class dreaded Mrs. Gupta. Mrs. Gupta was also famous for giving a lot of homework and was generally hated all over the school by the students. The younger kids dreaded the fact that they would soon have the face her and the seniors retched at the memories from the Math’s class. It was probably the prayers of all the students that had been the reason behind Mrs. Gupta’s sudden disappearance.
‘Can we please stand up one by one and tell everyone a little about ourselves’ added Anvita before waiting for the class to speak up.
The class continued to look at the new teacher silently without reacting.
Taking the cue and realizing the that the students were confused or frightened Anvita spoke again ‘ Ok Let me start’
‘I am Anvita, I have just joined this school as your Math’s teacher,’ she smiled before continuing.
‘I am sure all of us love Math’s. If all the other subjects are the parts of our body Math’s is the spinal cord supporting all the other subjects. Just as much as I love Math’s, I love singing. Most of my friends tell me that I am a good singer’ Anvita smiled again looking around at the eager faces.
The tension seemed have eased. And the students seemed more receptive to what she had to say. It was hard to tell if it was her beautiful face, her pleasing voice, the fact that the tyrant Mrs. Gupta was gone for good or all of these put together that made the difference. But the change was apparent.
‘Let me bring my guitar one day and then I can let you people judge for yourselves. What do you think?’ said Anvita looking eagerly for an answer. And this time the class responded. There were smiles everywhere as the students sounded a unanimous yes.
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‘Ranjan beta, wait a minute. We want to speak to you’ Ranjan heard his dad call out to him as he was about to leave the house for work.
Ranjan turned around wondering what his dad had wanted.
Rajneesh looked across to his wife for support - not that he was frightened of Ranjan but only because he understood the pain that his son was in. Ranjan had always been an obedient son, heeding to his parents every request and probably this was one of the reasons why Rajneesh found it hard to speak on this subject to his son. Rajneesh struggled for words and looked at Sunita helplessly hoping that she would fill in the void left behind by his failure to utter the words that he had so meticulously planned and rehearsed until this moment. There was an uncomfortable silence. Ranjan looked on from his father to his mother wondering what they had to say.
‘Ranjan, we have given this a lot of thought. Sunita and I have finally decided that we want to move back to Pune. We want to settle down and spend our last days peacefully in the city where we had found love’ Rajneesh blurted out in one breath.
‘But Dad’ Ranjan started to speak after what was a long pause.
‘No son, it is not sudden. And it is nothing to do with anything from your side. We had always wanted to settle in Pune after retirement. You know how much we love that city. And that was the reason why we had bought that house in Kothrud. We had imagined that we would do so once you were married and settled…..’ Rajneesh left the rest of his sentence unsaid.
Ranjan could see tears gushing out of his mothers eyes. He knew how hard it had been for his parents to make this decision. He also knew why they wanted to move back to Pune. He wondered if he would be able to convince them otherwise. Ranjan was worried about Sonu. He loved his son and wanted to provide him with all his love.
Life is mean, for it always rears its evil head when things seem to turning the tide for the better. Life is a like a game where there are constant challenges being thrown at you. Just when you are ready to rejoice having seen the back of a problem, life presents a new one that is harder than the first one.
Ranjan wondered what had happened in the intervening weeks for his parents to reach such an conclusion. He tried to recollect if there was something that he had done to hurt them, but could think of nothing in particular. Ranjan knew that it would be impossible to manage Sonu if his parents left for Pune. He was getting ready to plead his case and try to convince them. He even considered looking for a job in Pune.
‘Has something happened dad? Has someone told you something?’ he asked.
Ranjan felt helpless. He felt the same feelings return, the way he had felt when Sonu’s mom had passed away. He felt weak in the Knees. His legs had started to shake a little. But he held his fort not wanting to make his weakness evident.
His dad spoke up after what was a long time ‘No Son, we just want to move because the strain of living in a big city is getting on to us. We want a peaceful life for the rest of our days.’
‘But Sonu’ Ranjan managed before his dad started speaking again.
‘We have made up our mind and nothing you say is going to change it. Sunita has called Sashi aunty requesting her to get our house cleaned. We will be going next week, can you please book the tickets for us’
Tears streaked down his mothers face as she held onto the chair for support. His dad suddenly looked to have aged by a few years. Ranjan felt a lump in his throat, he was finding it hard to breathe. He was unable to understand why his parents were putting him through such an ordeal. But at the back of his mind he knew the real reason for his parents decision, he knew they wanted him to remarry. They were doing what they thought was good for their son. And he, their only son, the son who had always wanted to bring smiles to their wrinkled lips would have happily done anything but that.
Life, as we sometimes wonder is nothing but a series of misunderstandings - Everyone acting the a way he thinks is right, Everyone judging each action in a way that is favorable to him. And yet the tendency to classify something into good or bad is imbibed in us and we cannot but make a judgment either way. But there are no rights or wrongs to any action and there are only consequences that result from them.
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The classroom had suddenly transformed. There was so much energy and laughter all around that even Anvita would not have believed that it was the same classroom if she had not seen it firsthand.
Before long the students started to introduce themselves. Anvita listened keenly to the introductions. She had always loved little children and this was her dream come true. She would never be far from their exploring eyes and inquisitive minds. She had never felt so happy in her life. The life at school she thought was her destiny and her eternal goal.
It was soon Tanmay’s turn to introduce himself, Anvita immediately recognized him. She smiled reassuringly. But Tanmay was so frightened that nothing could comfort him any longer. He was close to tears, all he wanted was to be back with his father. He wanted to hide his face on his father’s chest and listen to the heartbeat.
‘I am Sonu’ he blurted out still lost in his thoughts
The entire class reverberated with laughter.
‘Sorry mam’ Tanmay added still looking desolately towards the new teacher.
Anvita continued to smile at Tanmay. Her pleasant face reminded Tanmay of his mother, his cheeks felt warm as the tears started to trickle down from his eyes. He felt pain, remorse, shame and loneliness all at the same time.
Anvita rushed towards him and took him into her arms. Tanmay felt the soft skin her stomach touch his cheeks as her arms embraced him. He could smell the scent of his mother.
He cried harder, not because he was saddened but he was frightened that it would all end if he stopped.
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Ranjan and Sumeet sat in the cafeteria sipping tea. Ranjan had been too disturbed to do any work since morning. Sumeet who was Ranjan’s colleague at work and also his good friend was troubled to find the lines of worry on Ranjan’s face. Sumeet had suggested that they go to the cafeteria for a tea.
They had been sitting silently with their cups in hand for a long time before Ranjan felt comfortable enough to start speaking.
‘I am moving back to Chennai,’
Sumeet looked on perplexed. He wondered what Ranjan was driving at.
‘What about Sonu?’ asked Sumeet after a long pause between them.
‘I guess it is time for him to find a place for himself in the world. It is probably our fate that has brought us here and it is time we came to terms with a life without ….’ Ranjan left the remaining sentence unfinished.
Ranjan started looking at the painting on the faraway wall wondering how life around him could be so normal when there was nothing but emptiness that he felt.
People trickled in and out of the cafeteria, unaware of the pain that surrounded the table where Ranjan and Sumeet sat.
‘What do you mean by find a place for himself?’ asked Sumeet before adding
‘I hope you are not planning on doing something foolish’
‘No, don’t worry’ Ranjan replied trying hard to smile.
Ranjan was trying but was doing a very bad job of hiding his pain. His eyes had filled up and were waiting to burst open.
‘I will admit him to a school in Panchgani. That way I will be sure that he will have my parents close by if something happens’ Ranjan wiped his eyes before continuing
‘I need sometime away from everything. I need to build my life back and staying here I will not be able to do it. Every road, every corner, every gust of wind carries her memories. I need to move to a place far away from here. And I think Chennai will give me time to heal and recover’
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Anvita held onto Tanmay for a long time before he calmed down. They finally parted, Anvita got down on her knees and kissed his cheeks before wiping his eyes dry. Later, realizing that she was in classroom where all the students where looking at her and Tanmay, Anvita started to blush.
She quickly stood up.
‘Can you introduce yourself’ Anvita said to the student sitting next to where Tanmay sat, after clearing her throat.
The introductions were done and Anvita was about to start the first lesson when the bell went off signaling the end of the period.
‘Oh! I did not realize how quickly time flew’ Anvita said smiling at the children.
‘See you tomorrow,’ she added as she collected her things before starting to walk towards the door.
Anvita stopped just as she neared the door and turned back towards the class.
‘Tanmay, can you please stop by at the staff room when you leave for the day,’ she added before turning around and leaving the class.
A few people foolishly believe that they have a choice when life itself provides ample proof to the contrary at every corner. If we ever wondered hard we would realize, we only see what we believe and we only believe what we hear.
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Tanmay had kept to himself in the last few days. He had spoken very little apart from when something was asked of him. Tanmay repeatedly watched all the videos that they had taken of him and his mother enjoying together during the holidays.
His grandfather and grandmother tried talking him out of his glum mood but failed. They had even tried reasoning with him, trying to convince him that it was important for his dad to get married.
Ranjan on the other hand had said little to Tanmay, every time he had wanted to speak the words failed to come out. It had taken Ranjan more than a week to finally find enough courage to face his son.
‘Sonu, do you realize that papa is helpless,’ Ranjan’s eyes were brimming. And he was looking at the floor unable to look his son in the eye.
‘Give papa a few years and we can stay together again, I promise. Papa has to go beta and he cannot take you to Chennai.’ Ranjan added
The time that they spent together was filled with an uncomfortable silence, where each hoped that he had been dreaming and when they woke up life would return to normal.
‘Can you please do papa a big favor, just this once Sonu. Papa will promise to come and meet you every month and then Dada, dadi will always be there near you. They will come to meet you every week’
Tanmay continued to stare at the wall.
Silence is sometimes much stronger than words, when it comes to healing pain.
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Anvita’s revulsion for her parents clouded her thoughts. She went through the proceedings without really involving herself into anything. She did not even want to look at the bridegroom.
Anvita had shouted at her mother whenever her mother had tried to talk about the subject or even wanted her to look at the photographs.
Anvita’s eyes darted trying to catch a glance of the person standing next to her, but her heart refused to give in.
She no longer cared about what happened to her life.
'What could be worse than having to stay under the same roof with her parents?' she thought
She hated her dad. But she hated her mother more for having meekly adhered to everything her dad had said.
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Ashok fiddled with the shawl as he stood next to Anvita. He did not want to go ahead with the proceedings after what had just happened. He only stood there because he did not want to make a fool of himself in front of all his friends.
He had been elated in the morning and was joyous as he got down from the car and walked towards the marriage stage. He looked around at the people who had come in and others who were streaming into the hall. He felt rich and powerful. He felt proud, for he was marrying into a family of such repute. And added to it the girl was so beautiful and well educated.
Ashok was about to enter the hall when his eyes met Praveen.
Praveen, Pradeep shattru’s son had been waiting for this moment.
Ashok looked at him menacingly. And life smiled, sneering at the turn of events; it laughed at the fact that no one could change fate.
Ashok wanted to give Praveen a resounding reply, he wanted to announce his victory. But there was something about Praveen’s face that made Ashok uncomfortable.
‘What are you so proud about, you are marrying a prostitute,’ said Praveen as Ashok passed him.
Praveen’s group of friends laughed.
Ashok stopped himself, he controlled his anger but could not refrain from turning around and enquiring from Praveen. Ashok wanted his victory to be complete, he was not going to let Praveen spoil it for him.
‘What are you talking about, you bastard’ sneered Ashok angrily rushing to take Praveen by his collar.
‘Oh don’t get angry at me, ask your father and if he does not tell you ask your Father in-law.’
Praveen turned around and left with his gang, not waiting for Ashok's reply. Praveen knew that his work was done. Victory was his.
Life laughed for it had used Praveen to roll the dice. And now the job was done.
Ashok stood there stunned not realizing what had just passed.
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Tanmay meekly entered the staff room clutching his notebook.
The Math’s teacher was talking to someone. Tanmay slowly edged closer to her fearing the worst.
‘Miss’ he managed meekly.
Anvita looked around wondering who was calling to her. Realizing that it was Tanmay she smiled patting his cheeks. All fear seemed to evaporate from Tanmay. He was not sure what was happening.
‘Chalo Shama, talk to you later’ Anvita said before turning back to Tanmay.
Anvita collected her books and walked along with Tanmay to the canteen. They both savored on the hot Maggi while Anvita asked Tanmay a lot of questions. And when they finished Anvita knew more about Tanmay than anyone at school. She felt sorry for the little kid and wanted to make him feel better.
Anvita convinced Tanmay to join her for dinner at her flat and they walked slowly holding hands.
The road was wet from the light drizzle that had visited Panchgani, as they had been eating the Maggi. The wind was filled with the sweet smell of wet mud. The trees lining the road were whispering with the wind. A few drops of water made their way on to Tanmay and Anvita.
It was getting dark, Tanmay held on to Anvita’s hand, pressing it hard.
Tanmay enjoyed the sumptuous meal that Anvita served him and also enjoyed the Television. They had limited access to Television at the hostel and the food was never this good. Tanmay was very sad when he had to leave. Anvita accompanied him to the hostel gate. She hugged him before he left and made him promise that he would drop by her house every time he felt sad or remembered his mother.
Tanmay walked back to his room, feeling happy for the first time since his mother had left him. Tanmay wished that Anvita could become his mother. And the next day morning he prayed to God hoping that his wish would be granted.
Life sometimes is like a jigsaw puzzle, waiting behind the bushes to push the pieces into place when you least expect them to. But who has known, and who can know what fate has in store for him, it has and will always remain a mystery. All we can do is hope for the best.
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Ashok rushed to where his dad and would be father in law stood discussing something.
He pulled them away from whatever they were doing.
In a wink the lights went off
In a wink the darkness stayed
In a wink life smiled at you
In a wink it all grayed
A wink is all it took, for everything to fall in place
A wink is what it took, for everything to go disarray
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Anvita was getting ready for school. She had woken up late and was rushing with her chores. It had been an exceptionally cold night and she was still trying to recover from it. She was heating the milk when she heard a loud knock at the door. Anvita rushed to the door wondering who it was at this early hour.
She was surprised to find Sonu standing at her door. He seemed very excited. She smiled at him and ruffled his hair.
‘Miss, my dad is coming to meet me this weekend’ Sonu said without waiting for her to speak. He was still panting for breath. He had probably run all the way from hostel to her flat.
‘Miss will you please meet him. I am sure you will like him’ Sonu added before rushing into the house and sitting on the cane chair on the living room.
In the weeks that had gone by Sonu had become very comfortable with Anvita. They had started spending a lot of time together. Each finding happiness, a semblance of hope that filled their empty life.
Sonu had received a telephone call from his father in the morning, informing him that his dad would be coming down to Pune for two weeks.
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End of Part II – The Matchmaker: a person who arranges or tries to arrange marriages by introducing possible mates